It's probably the hormones, but today I have about had my fill of this pregnancy. I have been chronically uncomfortable, if not in pain, for the last 3 months. I still have 4 weeks left and I'm not sure if I can emotionally handle it. I don't remember it being this hard with my last two. Sure I work part-time, drive an hour one way to get there, come home to beautiful but energetic children who are starting to understand the change coming and are starting to act out, have gained 25 pounds all if which is on my belly (looks like I have eaten a basketball), I have a horrible gallbladder that flares up constantly, I have at least 15 braxton-hicks daily ranging from uncomfortable to painful, etc, etc. I get that those things contribute to my complications, but frankly it doesn't make me feel any better knowing that I have all this added stuff to the pregnancy in itself.
I told Ryan today during our lunch date (we call each other at noon to check in and call it a date) that all I wanted was to curl up next to him and just cry. And if you know anything about me it is I don't like to cuddle and i don't like to cry, let alone do them at the same time. So that desire just emphasized how overwhelmed I am. But what can i do? Wait it out...I just need prayer that I can get through this; if not with the added help of morphine.
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Hang in there mama! You are getting close! The last few months are always so hard both mentally and physically. You will have some relief before too long though. And the girls will settle down as you get into your new groove.
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