Baby is ok!

I had my follow up visit with the neurologist, and found that the mass in the baby's brain was gone! There were still spots, but the doc said that they were of no concern. My next ultra-sound will be done at 18-20weeks, when most women have their normal ultra-sounds. During the U.S. the baby was very active. Kicking, waving, moving the head, etc. Haylee was very active as well, so we will expect to have another high energy baby!

During this experience, I have to say that it was the toughest time in my entire life. I went to a depth unlike any other before. I never struggled with my faith during this experience, that was constant. But I did find that I didn't want to talk to God. Not because I was mad at Him. I just didn't want to talk about it. I wanted to ignore it, and if I brought it before God, then I had to acknowledge the situation, and that made it too real. When I did think about it, there was a pain that was so surprising, only because I didn't know my heart could hurt like that. I have been forever changed by this situation. I have matured by fire, and learning the full meaning of dying to self.
God asked me to give Him my child. To leave it to His will, and to trust. I said to Him, only you can do that Lord, only you can give up your child, I am so weak and my heart can't take it. What patience and grace He showed me. Not because now we know the baby is healthy, but because of the "peace that transcends all understanding, [guarded] [my] heart and [my] mind in Christ Jesus" phil 4:6,7 The peace that I felt in the last couple of days was only from God and His spirit, as prayed for by my friends and family. When I walked into the ultra-sound room, I had already given my baby over to Jesus, and said let your will be done. But that was NOT out of my strength.
Thank you everyone who prayed. I honestly felt a difference in my daily life, and knew that the power of prayer was present. I hope that the blessings return to you ten-fold!

May God's blessings abound!