I use this site to document the blessings of my friends and family. It is the evidence of the out pouring of joy in my life. And though I still have many blessings in my life, I am currently going through a dark time; most likely my darkest. I feel the urge to isolate and withdraw, but then realize that would further the darkness and despair. And so I feel the need to purge my pain.
For those who do not know: On sept 4th I went into the OB/GYN for an emergency ultra-sound due to bleeding. The bleeding was routine, and the baby's growth and heart beat were great. I was later told that the baby had a mass in his/her brain. Prognosis, obviously not positive. We see a neurologist on sept 19th to determine...well whatever there is to determine. This will be the hardest two weeks of my life. It's the hardest not knowing anything, and having so many questions. So far what we know is, I could loose the baby at any point due to miscarriage, deliver a still-born or have the baby die shortly after birth, or have a child born with deficits. None of these options provide much hope. So I am left attempting to stay positive.
My heart is broken...This is an opportunity for faith and submission to God's sovereignty, but my heart is weary. Please be in prayer for baby clingenpeel.
Believing in miracles is easy, it is praying for His will to ultimately be done that is hard!
Lord give me strength to delight in your will!
3 comments:
I'm so sorry this is happening, Paige... I know how to pray.
I am so very sorry, Paige. I cannot begin to imagine what you must be going through right now. We will definitely be praying for you, the baby and your entire family. God Bless
Renee
Congratulations on your wonderful news!!! :) I was thinking about you all day!
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